Will I find someone again? (really lonely..)?

i'm 18 years old...female...i think im semi-attractive...anyways, i lost the love of my life a month ago....we were together for a year and a half....he was everything i ever wanted...i was madly in love....he was 22 years old and lived at home...he didnt have a job and he has major depression and i really think he is schizophrenic....he told me that he could never really love me and that he thought i was fat and needed to lose weight......when we broke up, he never picked up the phone when i called...i called recently and his mom picked up and i heard him in the backround saying "tell her to stop calling."......so im done with it which really hurts me....the reason why we stopped talking is because he honestly believes that im a demon or a devil worshipper...i dont get it at all...thats why i think he is schizophrenic.....everyone is telling me to stay away from him but im still in love with him and it hurts me so bad to think about living without him....i know from someone on the outside looking in, they would think that this guy is a loser because he doesnt work, lives at home, and is probably schizophrenic....but, i guess i look at it differently because i keep thinking about all the good times we had and not the bad...i keep thinking about the times when he was very sweet to me and not the times when he was extremely mean.....when we broke up, he called me and asked me to bring him some sleeping medicine. he lives about an hour away from me so i put all my money into the gas tank to bring it to him.....when i got there, i started crying because of the break-up and the fact that he honestly believed im a demon and never wanted to talk to me again....he took the medicine from me and went inside and closed the door on my face.....he left me sitting on the stairs crying.....why am i still so in love with him after this??? i can tell he doesnt love or care about me?? will i ever find someone again??